Thursday, March 25, 2010

Punky at 5 months

Well today my sweet Alice is 5 months old. I can hardly believe it. The time sure does fly!!! We have started her on some rice cereal, she is awfully funny about eating it. She tends to lean forward towards the spoon, and sometimes if I don't get it in her mouth fast enough, she starts to cry.

She still is not sleeping through the nite. I think she would get there if I could get her into her crib. She sleeps with us. When she was way small it was a lot easier on me. She hates to sleep on her back though. So I am going to try and have her nap on her tummy sometime this weekend to see what happens. I mean good lord, back in the day moms used to drink and smoke while pregnant, as well as laying their kids on the tummy to sleep, and most kids were just fine.

Alice laughs and laughs all the time. She loves when you blow raspberries on her tummy, and when Ayla licks her hand. I enjoy every minute that I can spend with my sweet goober. She is so silly, I can't imagine our live with out her.

I do miss Gunny everyday. I wish he could have been here to meet Alice. I can only imagine how he would be with her. Quite gentle of course, but probably not concerned with her, but more concerned about what Ayla is doing. As was his usual temperament. I miss him so much everyday.

Gunny, I know you are up in heaven having a great time, I can only hope that you are looking down on all of us, and watching over us. I miss you and love you!!!

Monday, March 1, 2010

My favorite place

I have decided that my favorite place in the whole wide world is Alice's room. I absolutely love sitting in the rocking chair rocking my sweet fussypants girl to sleep. The weight of her warm little body on me is the best thing in the whole entire world. I love her beautiful peach beige room and the far far away fabrics in orange, purple and pink.

Each day my love for her grows bigger and bigger. I love every little thing about her. My girl is now 4 months old! I can hardly believe it. I feel like soon she is going to be driving and saying things like "mom you're embarrassing me!" I have a picture on my desk of her wearing her little outfit for her announcement. Her legs look like teeny tiny toothpicks! They look so cute and small. She definitly doesn't have toothpick legs anymore. She loves it when you hold her up and she can stand on her legs. She gets a big huge smile on her face.

I love you my sweet sweet Alice.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

So this Monday was the end of my maternity leave. Back to work, schedules, real clothing (not comfy clothes), and handing off my sweet Alice to the lovely folks at daycare. I knew that the drop off would be turned out to be so much harder than I ever imagined.

Then I returned to work....I had to remember all kinds of stuff. Important things that I need to know for day to day work, but these were things that I had forgotton on my 3 month long vaca. Monday proved to be super difficult. I missed baby Alice so much. She is the joy of my life. Yes we have our tough days and it is sometimes exhausting. OK it is always exhausting. I would love to sleep for 6 hours straight. But regardless I don't know why I was so afraid to have a child. She is so worth it. She is the most important person in my life. I called to check on her about 4 times, and saw her at lunch. She was fine..I on the other hand was a wreck.

When my day was finally complete I went to pick her up. I felt like she had this blank look on her face like "where the hell have you been". All I did Monday night was hold her. Until about 7:30 when I was just exhausted. So I passed her off to Tyler so I could get some much needed sleep. Which then brought me to a fresh set of tears on Tuesday when I realized that I had spent a total of 4 or 5 waking hours of the day with her. She is growing so fast and I know I am missing it by only being with her for a few short hours a day.

Anyway that is how our first week is going. She's doing great..I am a complete mess tortured by guilt, sleeplessness, anger at the fact that I have to go to work, and missing my sweet girl so much.

My maternity leave was awesome and I loved every minute with my punky loo whoo!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

My first Blog

I'm not sure why I created a blog. Maybe cause it's 4:42 AM and Baby Alice is fussy. I don't have the most exciting things to blog about, but if Mom has one surely I can think of things to write on here..maybe for no-one else to read but for me to just express myself.

Well Baby Alice is 5 weeks old and I can hardly believe it. Already I feel as if time is flying by. My little munchkin is getting bigger and bigger every day, soon I will be back at work and won't be able to spend 24/7 with her...that makes me sad :(

I don't have much else to write right now..maybe in a couple of hours....all I can say is that I had no idea the amount of love I could feel for one little girl...she is my world!